daily considerations for an anal whore

29 December, 2006

This morning began its typical course but for the fact that THANK GOD HALLELUJAH i am sleeping with Master EVERY SINGLE NIGHT THIS WEEK! i am in Heaven. There is no greater feeling than to be entwined in His limbs and muscles with that one particular hot one shoved up into my cunt or 2nd-cunt.

Its not all sexual. Some of it is just about completion. Completion of a person -- completion of me -- completion of a slave. Or completion of some dream-fanatic who knows sticky and clingy when answered means velvet smooth.

Master's body is luxurious. i'd sleep more if i could! Lust keeps me awake and its the only competition to slinking down into His flesh and immersing.

Master is not at work this week but i am and so each morning, i awaken and DRAG myself to get up and get ready and haul my little self into a big girl's world. i had one of those conversations with myself on the commute. The conversation where i talk to an imaginary boss. "Yeah, well, i've got more important things going on in life than dealing with this crud."

The conversation usually is some sort of defense or defiance. "Yeah, well, how about mE? How about the fact that i have a LIFE? How about the fact that i had to shuttle two people clear across the county this morning, both in entirely different directions, and i needed to make time to present my 2nd-cunt to Master for use first and gee whiz i have responsibilities in this world! i have FAR GREATER considerations than that which exist in the office with petty clients and their petty laments. Master used my 2nd-cunt this morning!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Did you hear me? Has the world taken note?! Master needed to USE HIS sLAVE'S RECTUM this morning and that is of FAR GREATER IMPORTANCE than the fact that i arrived at work two hours late."

So there!

After that diatribe, i usually start in with the other conversation -- the self to self one. i start demanding answers from myself. "What about my PERSONAL pursuits? WHEN am i going to have time to work on my new website? my art? my OTHER passions? my sex-object body, my superficial interests which are just as legitimate as my soul searching quests?"

Then dominoes fall and the hair-trigger fires and i wonder about the people who call and demand from me when they have only ONE job (if any at all). Its always the ones with no dependents, no reliability requirements, and all the time in the world who come along to tell you you're selfish for not dropping everything to accommodate their immediate need (or command for undivided attention from the attention-hungry deprived!). Let's all keel over to aid what is hardly critical!

Once at work, i know REALLY important matters with which to contend like the fact that the skirt i wore has a slit that rides up the back higher than the thigh high stockings. In fact, i realized that the top of the slit is only one exact inch from the bottom of my bottom cheeks and basically i worry that something might ooze out unexpectedly.

Before leaving for work, fortunately, the cum enema began earlier than the usual two hour mark. This time it didn't dribble out, it blasted out! i can't say i'm disappointed. This way i'm relieved. And still, there is the remnant issue with which to reconcile. Thankfully i was smart enough to wear a thick suede skirt. Imagine if i wore sheer white linen!

Well, AT LEAST i have such considerations! Why think of yesterday! i served no purpose to Master. i raced off to work and He was still sleeping. i was empty (literally!) all day and i was lost without my objectification. This morning, Master grabbed onto a tit and f-ed me mercilessly in the two holes below. He started with the cunt and then moved to use the 2nd-cunt. Its so matter-of-fact! Its so reassuring! The cum ripped through me and i was relieved. Master had release. i had reduction. All is well in the world.

Thank God for real purpose and real considerations! Tell Mr. and Mrs. Whitmore that i'll be with them after i dab at the leaking goo from my bottom. Hold my calls, fluff up the lobby cushions -- EVERYONE AND EVERYTHING will just have to wait. i intend on sacrificing NOTHING because why? Why should anyone be a martyr in this world? Even slaves and anal cum-buckets are not martyrs.